Oahu: Day 2 & 3

I woke up at like, 4:30 am this day haha. I LOVE waking up early, so I counted it as a win and went down to the local coffee shop as soon as it opened. 

I got an açai bowl and went back for breakfast every day after that haha. Needless to say, you should all add Island Vintage Coffee to your list of places to go. 

After breakfast we pretty much just had a chill beach day. It was nice just to relax by the pool and get tan. My main goal on the trip was to get tan and I think I met it like 60%.

I finally finished this book! I thought it was really good. Stephen King is my forever favorite.

We ate at one of the restaurants at the resort and got these really good drinks! Mine was like a pina colada made with guava and it was SO GOOD. 

Needless to say, day 2 was a good one! I love having days where I do literally nothing haha.

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Day 3 started out with breakfast on the beach again.

 

I went to Island Vintage Coffee... again haha. This day I tried the mango and peanut butter sandwich. It was really good! It was a lot for the morning, but I would hands down get it for lunch. 

How cute is this Mickey Mouse pretzel?

I didn't take many pictures this day because we went on an excursion on a catamaran. If you know me you know I have a fear of open water and basically avoid boats at all costs. So, I'm pretty proud of myself for getting on this one. I didn't go snorkeling or eat any food, but I did make friends with a 3 year old named Dylan who was also scared of the water haha.

Isn't this the cutest bridge? If I had to propose I would do it here hahaha.

XOXO

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Oahu: Day 1

Yay Hawaii! I went with two of my friends and it was SO MUCH FUN! We got in pretty late, so we didn't do much the first day. We pretty much just explored the hotel and got dinner.

When we got to our resort they said, "Welcome home!" and gave us leis hahaha. It was so perfect.

The view from our room! Super gorgeous.

And the night time view. I wanted to get one of those really cool long exposure photos, but I left my tripod at home :/ Things to try next time :)

We ate at Roy's for dinner. Any restaurant that provides edamame is a win in my book. The first night I got the "mango and cheese" croistini appetizer because I figured it would be enough. HAHA. I forgot how small the portions at fancy restauratns are lol. Needless to say I ate every last bit of it. ALSO THIS MOLTEN CAKE WAS LITERALLY HEAVEN.

After dinner we wandered around the resort. They had it all cute and Christmas-y and it was amazing. We layed on the beach and chatted. It was so weird to hear the ocean but not be able to see it yet haha. I love getting to places late at night and then waking up the next morning and being able to finally see what it looks like. 

Part 2 tomorrow! Also sorry if splitting vacations by day is annoying IRL, but I love looking back on posts of my trips so the blog world will have to deal haha. 

XOXO

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A Happy List: 96

(How cute is this client and her pup? I got a new email for photography stuffs, so if you want to reach me it's info@emmy.photography)

When Trixie stretches her leg when I scratch it. / Finding the cutest Christmas house. / When I realized I was out of face wipes at 9:00 pm and Jake went to the store and got me more. / Vines that make fun of teenage movies. / When I started Gone Girl and realized I was reading yet another book where the main character is a writer hahaha. (All of the main characters in Stephen King books are writers.) / When I leave the basement door open for Trixie and she comes down in her own time haha. She is like an actual human being. / Peppermint North Poles / Dog bowties. / All of the clothes I got from Piper and Scoot. They are seriously perfect. / Being able to feel the music in your bones at concerts.

XOXO

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And I Float

Winter is my favorite season. 

XOXO

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Absence Makes The Heart Grow Fonder

Sorry for my absence lately. I don't really have a good excuse. I went to Hawaii. I've also been really into reading books instead of blogs. No offense to the blog world, but sometimes I have to take a break to realign myself with real life haha.

I'll be back soon though. I have some pictures from Hawaii that I really want to share! I have the week after Christmas off, so I'll probably catch up with blogs then :) I promise I am still friends with all of you and care about your lives!

Things I've been doing instead of blogging:
- Reading: The Dark Half (good), The Dead Zone (the first Stephen King book I haven't liked) and I just started Gone Girl (I've been waiting for this for so long.)
- Organizing: I've basically set aside two garbage bags full of clothes I need to get rid of. I'll probably do an Instagram closet sale later ugh.
- Spending time with Jake: I have been pretty angsty/sad lately, so anytime Jake is home I just want to spend time with him and not be on my computer or anything. Not to mention I've had a few meltdowns that have wasted away my evenings from anything productive.
- Moping: I know I'm moving to New York in a few months (138 days to be exact) but I'm getting really done with Utah/not having my own apartment/the absence of novelty haha. I miss decorating and walking around in my underwear. Not going to lie. It's like knowing New York is so close is making me crazy.

That's it. I don't really feel like I have a lot to show for myself in reality haha. But, I've basically been really focused on surviving basic life scenarios, like getting up in the morning and interacting with human beings. The only thing keeping me going these days is knowing that good things are coming soon. Soon I will be in my own apartment in New York City, decorating, wearing only my underwear, and going to school again. I'll be using public transportation and exploring a whole new territory.

Ok and I'd be lying if I didn't give Jake 100% credit for being the best. He brushes my hair, gives me back rubs, goes to the store for me, and is so nice and calm all the time. He'll be like, "Why are you sad?" And I'll either vent for an hour or say nothing and he is so great in either scenario. I probably couldn't put up with myself for 10 minutes if I were him. That boy deserves a medal for doing it every day and STILL telling me I'm not crazy or depressed when I claim I am hahaha.

Oh, but I actually am starting real therapy at the end of this month, so I'm really excited. I need to work on the way I communicate with others, and make it more effective. I also need to work on my attitude and interpretation of others. That's all I'll say on a public platform, but regardless I think it will fix some problems I've been having consistently the past year or two.

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If you read all this, congrats! You care about me as a person! You're not just here for the pictures! ;)

I love you all.

XOXO
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A Happy List: 95

Flying out of L.A. at night and watching the city shrink. / Chocolate souffle. / Having juice and soda with Dylan on the catamaran. He was 4 and also scared to snorkel haha.  / Finding things that I have pinned in real life! So far I've found 2 of my pins and bought them. / Jake telling me he is done with my Christmas shopping already. / That part in Silver Linings Playbook when the dad is like, "Why are you wearing a trash bag?" and the son is like, "It's a sweater." / The girl at the beach with light pink hair. She was goals for sure. / Kelly singing me to sleep. / When both me and Sydney accidentally touched Kelly's boob hahaha. / The macarons from Island Vintage Coffee.

XOXO

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A Happy List: 94

Being able to shoot my film-style for Piper and Scoot. (View my photos here, here and here.) / These koala candies. / Making hot chocolate in a Keurig. / Petting a 9-week-old mini Austrailian Shepherd that looked like this. / When my niece felt bad for being mean to me at dinner and kept complimenting everything about me hahahah. / Trying all the flavors of Martinelli's. / Watching it snow in the morning when no one else was awake. / Dawn Golden. / The way your hair feels after you get a haircut. / All the funny books and knick-knacks at Atticus Coffee. 

XOXO

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Thanksgiving

This year it was my family's turn for Thanksgiving. They wanted to go to Hotel Park City and eat out for dinner, so that's exactly what we did!

I loved being the first one up every morning and watching the sun rise through our cottage windows.

My brother flew in from New Mexico and brought his girlfriend with him. It was so much fun having them both with us. :) (That's not his girlfriend in the picture, that's my sister hahaha.)

You guys. HAHAHHAHA. This cute old couple was sitting at the table reading their newspapers. It was so adorable I just couldn't resist taking a picture. The first one I took wasn't focused, so I took another, but the lady TOTALLY caught me. I love her face haha.

This is me trying to pretend I wanted a picture of my sister instead... not sure how believable it was haha. Oh, but also this was at Wasatch Bagels and they had CAFFEINE FREE CHAI. CAN YOU BELIEVE IT?! So yummy!

We drank many a Martinelli's and watched many a episodes of Lost.

EVERY SINGLE SELFIE WE TRY TO TAKE WITH MY 50MM. WHY, 50MM. WHY.

We went to Ruth's Chris for Thanksgiving dinner (and for my sister's birthday dinner the night before lol) and it was so nice not having to cook anything or clean anything up haha. How lazy does that make me sound?! No, but really. Like, we could all just hang out and spend time together and no one had to be slaving away in the kitchen. Neither Jake or I are big fans of Thanksgiving dinner. I think next year when we start our own Thanksgiving traditions we are going to either go out to eat somewhere Mexican or Italian or make tacos at home hahahaha. 

VEGETARIANS ATTENTION: This is a bagel sandwich from Atticus Coffee in Park City. It has cheese, egg, and VEGGIE SAUSAGE. It tastes like real sausage and scared me so I had to have Jake test it to make sure it wasn't real. GO THERE IF YOU MISS BREAKFAST SANDWICHES.

All in all, it was a good last Thanksgiving in Utah! It's weird that we're getting down to our last holidays in Utah haha. I remember when it seemed like New York was years away, and now I'll be living there in 5 months! I'm so excited to start some traditions in the city :) We've talked about what traditions we want to do with our own family one day, and it's weird to think that next Thanksgiving we can start implementing them. Like real adults haha! Anyway, sorry to bring New York up in every other post but I'm just so dang excited I can't stop thinking about it haha. 

XOXO

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A Happy List: 93

The drive to the pharmacy with Sydney. / Snow covered mountains during sunrise. / The call I had with one of my offices. Hahah she was so spicy I had to start writing down things she had said. / When Jake asked the McDonald's employee if they accept Apple Pay and she thought he was asking for apple pie and told us it would be an 8 minute wait. / Pumpkin spice hot chocolate from Starbuck's. / Finding out we get time off after Christmas! / Finishing two shoots in one day... the day after I shot them. #underpromiseoverdeliver. / When Jake put a peanut in Trixie's lips. / Garlic knots. / The way Tasty videos are filmed.

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Here are some funny things people said this week...

My mom: "That's a Brugee's waffle?! I thought you were eating a Waffle Luv waffle!!"
Me: *excited yelling* "NO!!!! IT'S BRUGEE'S!!!! How can you not tell?!?! Waffle Luv doesn't have chocolate inside their waffles!!!!!!!"
My mom: "You're yelling about food!!! I've raised you well."

(I apparently didn't tell my mom there was a Brugee's in Provo.)
My mom: "So, that was my day. Then I come home to find out you've been hiding Brugee's Waffles and Frites from me."

My friend: "That's her sister. She's a bitch."

(Have you guys seen this video? Watch it or this one won't be funny.)
We were watching that part in Lost where Michael is yelling at Jin because he attacked him over a watch. Michael yells at him for a good minute and then walks away.
Jake: "Ha!!! Got eem!!!!"

Me: "I'll probably just have Mini Wheats again."
Jake: "You're going to turn into a Mini Wheat."

Me: "I'm going to go eat this while I hang out with my friends."
My mom: "Who?"
Me: "Joey, Chandler, Ross, Monica..."
My mom: "YOU HAVE A CHOICE! YOU COULD HANG OUT WITH ME BUT YOU HAVE A CHOICE!"

XOXO
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Anxiety.

Freaking out over here. I found out I got into NYU which is exciting, but also really stressful. I basically have three choices:

#1. Start school in January without Jake. Graduate in May of 2017.

#2. Start school in September with Jake. Graduate in May of 2018.

#3. Wait until Monday and hear when I would graduate if I started school in May. Aka somehow make myself have patience. (This isn't an option because ANXIETY.)

Even if I did decide on one of those, there's the delimma of housing. Call me high maintenence, but I can't go from living with a husband for two years to living with roommates again. I just don't feel like it would be a good decision. All the studios in Manhattan by NYU are way out of our price range. Studios elsewhere (like Brooklyn or Jersey) scare me, because I am scared of Brooklyn and I don't want to live far away from campus in case I have to have a late night and commute back home. 

Not to mention I wasn't anticipating getting into NYU in the first place, so we have like a quarter saved of what we wanted. I was expecting to move in May, so I have our monthly savings adjusted to accomdate that. Which means even if I did need to move to New York in January in order to graduate in a decent amount of time, I wouldn't be able to afford anything. I wouldn't literally be living off of loans (which I don't know how much they will be for yet). I would also probably be eating cereal and spaghetti for every meal (although what else is new there). We wouldn't have enough money for Jake to fly out and see me a lot, so we probably would see each other like once during those 3 months. WHICH WOULD SUCK BECAUSE MY LOVE LANGUAGE IS QUALITY TIME AND I ALREADY GET SAD BECAUSE I FEEL LIKE WE NEVER SEE EACH OTHER.

ANXIETY ANXIETY ANXIETY. I'm super happy I got into NYU. The other program I was in was 3 years, and this new one is 16 months. I only have a week to decide what I'm going to do though, and I'm freaking out. We don't have the financial means for me to live in New York comfortabley without Jake, and I don't want to be living with weird people and hating my life. And I also don't want to live there without Jake. Like, if the graduation difference is a year, I could make that work and just take out lots loans to get my own studio. But if I would only graduate like 8 months later if I waited for Jake then I would rather do that. 

ANYWAY LIFE IS THE WORST RIGHT NOW AND I'M NOT ADULT ENOUGH TO MAKE THESE DECISIONS SO BYE FELICIA.

XOXO

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Frushi.

If you need to know true love, make Tasty's fruit sushi recipe. 

You're welcome.

XOXO

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