A Happy List: 92

THE SNOW TODAY. / When Jake cleaned the house <3 /  Doing parkour for Jake. / Getting a new swimsuit. / Finally using VidAngel. / My coworker was talking about this new video game he got. I said, "Fallout 4" and it was so awesome seeing his reaction that I knew hahah. / Meeting a girl who looks exactly like Marissa Cooper from The O.C. / Trixie in her Christmas pajamas. / The new mug I found at Fed Ex of all places. / The dental hygienist was doing some sensitivity tests on my teeth. She told me to keep my hand raised when I could feel the cold, and to put it down when it went away. I accidentally raised my hand really fast, then tried to say, "I messed up on that one." But I had so much spit in the back of my throat I just started gargling and laughing. The dental hygienist started laughing too and we just sat there laughing together haha. 

Funny things people said this week:

Me: You're both aware of Amber Fillerup, right?

My mom: Yeah, she's at your work right?

Me while watching Friends: Mom! It's your guy! You like him! He's in The Transporter?

My mom: He's not in The Transporter and I don't like him. *walks away*

Me: I wish those people would leave so I can go downstairs.

My mom: I know. That's how I feel all the time. (Making a joke about me and Jake because we live in her basement hahaha.)

(We had just airplayed a movie from my phone. I ran to the bathroom but my phone was still on airplay so Jake could see everything I was looking at. He was texting me about what movie to watch next.)

Jake: Hey have you seen good will hunting?

Me: No

Jake: It's supposed to be like the shiz movie of all time

Me: Dead emoji

Jake: Taco emoji

*I swiped up when I saw this text*

Jake: I saw you just ignored my taco

Jake: Aw ignored again!

(My mom texting me about where her playing cards were located.)

Me: I have some walking dead ones

My mom: I had like three bags full of them I just wondered where they were it's weird

Me: Gnomes

My mom: Stinking gnomes stealing cards to make homes out of. What do they think we are a building supply company?

My mom sends me this picture and says, "The twins I never knew I had." (This one for real makes me LOL just reading again.)

XOXO

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What My Life Is Actually Like

Have you guys heard about that Instagram-famous model who is now against social media? It's so dumb haha. Like, I understand where she is coming from but I don't think social media is "fake" in anyway. Like I think you can definitely make yourself fake and that's obviously what she struggled with, but like social media doesn't make someone get to that point. The person being insecure makes them get to that point.

Idk. I think that girl had lots of good things to say, but I kind of wish instead of hating on social media she would have started using it for good. Like she could have raised awareness about non-profits or featured small shops (like the ones that give tons of money to Africa and sell African pants or something like that). It's kind of sad that she is putting so much energy into tearing social media down instead of using it as a tool to build other things up, but oh well. Whatever floats your boat. 

N.E.WAY. I've been trying to get my Instagram to be coherent lately, but the other day I realized how dumb that was. Like, I guess I still care about it looking good visually because it's an artistic challenge, but UGH WHY THE ALL WHITE EMILY. I know that is like, soooo trendy right now, but I love film and grain. So, I'm switching my personal Instagram back to the way I like it and I'll keep my photography Instagram light and clean for business purposes haha.

LONG RANT OVER.

Our life basically consists of, "We are almost through our food budget! We can't go out!"

"Well, I did just earn $5. We could use that and it wouldn't show up in our budget?"

Then I leave the house in only fuzzy socks because they have a DRIVE-THRU LITTLE CAESARS YOU GUYS,  but it wasn't open yet so I ended up waiting in the car while Jake went to get it haha.

Then we obviously watched Parks and Rec for the rest of the night. I took a quiz and it said I was Chris Traegar? For some reason I don't think it's right, but I can't think of who else I would be either haha.

XOXO

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Real Stuff For A Second

I wrote this whole post about Utah but then deleted it because of #*OtHeRs*FeELiNgS*. (Shout out to Riley Jo.)

If there's one thing I've learned in my 19 years in Utah it's this: People who love Utah, LOVE UTAH. By trying to find validation and comfort with my Utah struggle I've somehow ended up offending people or being lectured. People don't want to listen to some girl talk about how she doesn't like it here. OF COURSE THEY ARE GOING TO BE OFFENDED, EMILY. Really, it's my bad. I should have known. If I want someone currently living in Utah to agree with me on this I should probably go buy a brick at Home Depot and paint a face on it.

I'm still struggling with living here and still seeking validation and comfort. Some days are better than others. Some days I look at the paper chain countdown I made (breakdowns call for desperate measures haha) and I'm like "NEW YORK IS SO FAR AWAY I AM LITERALLY TRAPPED HERE FOREVER." But, I guess what's another 6 months when I've been waiting to move for 4 years. In the mean time, I'll just try to survive without offending too many Utah loving hearts ;) 

I wish they made pills you could take that could make you fit in with everyone else. #personalitypills. It's so easy for me to get depressed at how different I am from those around me. I'm liberal, introverted, and not satisfied with living here. Those three things alone can make me feel like an alien if I let it. Especially if I don't communicate effectively with others about what I need in order to feel loved and respected. But, in the end, I just need to be an adult and say, "I've done lots of social things and I just want to spend time alone." Or, "Let us not speak about politics, ever." Haha. It's not like people would break down in tears if I decided to be a real person with them. Like how are they supposed to know if I don't tell them? #aintnomindreader. People are good and understanding. They just want me to be happy. But I can't be happy if I don't effectively communicate with them what I need in order to be happy. 

This is turning into a weird therapy thing, so I guess I'll go. Sometimes it's nice to just start typing and let the mind go where it goes. I didn't think I thought about this a lot, but if it popped out in this post then apparently it's something that weighs on my mind. 

XOXO

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ZAO: The Second Food Post In A Row. I'm Not Sorry.

Ok. Go to ZAO also. I have posted about them before but they are SO GOOD. We usually don't go to the same places twice (unless it's fast food) but you can't say no to some fresh Asian food. Get their snap peas and the green curry sauce! Oh, and don't forget to try the organic sodas.

Slab: My Pizza Love

Step 1: Go to Slab.

Step 2: Thank me later.

XOXO

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A Happy List: 91

So this is my pod at work. I named it Podest Mouse. One day at work we all decided to dress up as our pod, so naturally we decided to be as Portland as possible :D Pictures courtesy of @emikanawaddell 

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Finally getting my studio photos to where I want them to be. / When we thought there was a spy at work. / Setting up our Christmas stuff and rearranging the basement. / Trixie's new clothes from Target. / New collaborations. / Lighting candles. / Having the soft glow of the Christmas tree to guide me when I get up in the mornings. / When it snowed little, baby snows. / Hanging up my new studio backdrop. / Getting new models for future shoots.

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Every time Jake opens the car door for me, the belt on my coat is hanging out the door. Every time he sees this he says, "You have a dangly." Tonight, we were getting in the car. In the darkness he said, "You probably have a dangly."

We were singing along to "Smack That" (mega tbt I know) and instead of saying "smack that" over and over again Jake replaced it with "chesters".

My mom: *struggling to explain a ditzy person* "The train doesn't go all the way to the station!"

Boy at McDonald's: "I like your... (stops to greet someone on the headset) Your... *gestures to entire torso* all this. (Get's back on headset.)

This is inappropriate but I'm an adult so whatever. Me and my coworker were talking about something that involved the... male... anatomy... while one of our other coworkers was on the phone. She started talking about The Peanuts Movie, but from afar it sounded EXACTLY like she said penis hahahahahahahah. It was the most perfect timing and we died.

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GUYS I'M ALMOST TO 100 HAPPY LISTS.

XOXO
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Frappula, Yo

We got the "Frappula" (Dracula frappuchino) on Saturday. I love Starbuck's because it reminds me of my grandma and she is my favorite person on earth. 

Also, I'm putting together a how-to on ordering non-coffee drinks at Starbuck's. Whenever someone ordered a vanilla steamer I used to ask, "Do you drink coffee?" and if they said "No." I would suggest something else. THERE IS SO MUCH MORE TO STARBUCK'S THAN VANILLA STEAMERS AND VANILLA BEAN FRAPPUCHINOS.

No worries, dear children. I will teach you.

<3

XOXO

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I Am Not A Fashion Blogger

For some reason I really like documenting these. The outfit on the top right got me a literal round of applause from 20 people at work this week hahahaha. 

I want to make a book of outfits, so I can just flip through it and pick what I want to wear that day. #lazy. Honestly, it's been nice though. I've been going through my closet and wearing everything once. Like, once I wear something I put it in the back and don't let myself wear it again until I have gone through everything. It's really made me notice how many clothes I keep that I never wear hahaha.

I'm 90% sure our apartment in New York is going to be like, 500 square feet, so I'm trying really hard to downsize all our stuff and only keep essentials. It's been an adventure for sure, but I feel like I've been doing really well! Those freaking Instagram closet sales snipe me everytime though. That shirt in the bottom left was like, $6 or something! #deals4real

ANYWAY. I don't know how to end this. So, peace.

XOXO

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Beverly's Vlogs

Hey hey. If you want to watch the vlogs Beverly made when I visited her, here they are! :) Thanks Bev!






XOXO
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#custompumpkin

Lol my brother-in-law made me this pumpkin. Also, yes, I do have a photography studio in my house now, in case you were wondering why the sudden white backgrounds. I don't have a softbox yet, but will be getting one soon! Awe yi!!

Also, I am no longer posting the same photos on my blog and Instagram, so if you want to see what's happening over there I've added a link on my sidebar.

XOXO
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007 Alien Style

I know Halloween is over, but I made these via Jake's request and had to share hahahaha.

XOXO
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A Happy List: 90

Realizing that I'm done with my first trimester in my moving-to-New-York pregnancy metaphor. :'D

Smith's Marketplace. They literally have everything you could ever want and more.

 When Jake quotes the German guy from the Party Pooper video.

Getting tons of food at work because my coworkers are bomb.

Discovering there is a Slab in Lehi now!!!

When Drake says, "hotline bling".

My mother-in-law's quiche.

My new studio backdrop.

Changing our sheets.

Jovanna's dog.

FUNNY THINGS PEOPLE SAID:

My mom: "I'm sick of crazy, stupid people!"

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My mom: "(blah blah blah)... hellness."

Me: "Mom! You never curse!

My mom: "It's not a curse! It has -ness on the end!"

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I was telling my mom about all the people who know her and want to meet her based on what I post on social media. She said, "Holy crap! I'm famous!"

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My mom: "I thought Eminem was a candy for years!"

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Jake: *credit cards me* "Gotcha in your cracker spaniel."

XOXO

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#utahisrad

Guys. This was the actual, real sunrise on my way to work Wednesday. *heart eyes emoji*

XOXO

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