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It's just messy.

Monday, December 12, 2011

Blargh. I've been trying to get a blurry background on my photos, but it doesn't work well with my lens. SO. Word of advice. If you have a 18-55 mm lens, and want blurred backgrounds, you have to make sure you background is way far away from your subject. At least that's what I've found. Hopefully, I'll get a new lens soon.




That's what happens when you take your camera to school. 
I enjoy the outcome.
Pear haps I'll make a daily habit of this.

And finally, some creeper photos of the day. Don't be alarmed. I know all of these people except for the lad in the upper right.



xoxo,
Emily

p.s. it's not even funny how much food i ate today.

sixteen hours, seven minutes, and forty three seconds.

Sunday, December 11, 2011

my spirit hood
is the best article of clothing
i have ever purchased

i would rather cut off my pinkie toe
than give it back

no exaggeration

I am now going to take you on a virtual tour of my room.
BE SO EXCITED OH MY GOSH THIS IS SO EXCITING I CAN'T EVEN BEGIN TO EXPLAIN MY EXCITEMENT I JUST NEED TO SCREAM TO GET IT ALL OUT I AM SO STOKED MAN

 this, children, is my spirit hood

this, children, is how i feel when i wear my spirit hood

 this, children, is my desk where i get ready and do homework

 this, children, is my closet that has very recently been turned into a make-shift art studio

 this, children, is my bookcase

 this, children, is a wall

this, children, is where i lay my head at night

This is 58 seconds of your life you will never get back.

Saturday, December 10, 2011

There was a woman who had Dissociative Identity Disorder.

One of her personalities was allergic to something her other personality wasn't. Interesting isn't it? Also, personality disorders are the hardest to work with, as far as therapy. They don't see themselves as having the problem; it's everyone else who is sending them there out of frustration. 


The only thing I've accomplished all week is two days of school, one career fair, the viewing of a placenta, vomiting twice, and watching the entire first season of The Walking Dead.

Zombies are never too much for me.

Even though he smokes like a chimney and swears like a sailor,, he's really quite enjoyable.

Wednesday, December 7, 2011

I will always say what's on my mind and you can count on that. I will try to not name specific persons and I will try to not give away too much sensitive information. It's just that I don't see the point of wearing a mask and painting words yellow.

It's cliche.
Did you hear that society?

Well, it's 9:30 and I probably should get one of my seven overdue calculus assignments done. Or maybe start on some of my AP language homework. Or eat something. Or clean my room. Unpacking would probably be pretty productive as well.
But, who needs all that when you have The XX and Fresca.

Today, I woke up and went to school. I only went to first though. Technically. My Calculus teacher told me to sit outside while they went over the test, but he never called me back in... I got a lot of AP language homework done though. 

When I was walking down the stairs a boy in front of me turned around, smiled, and pointed to the window. On it was written "mr.spider" and an arrow pointing to a weird nest type thing. I look at it and then looked at him, expecting more. He just had the same strange smile on. Then he turned around and continued walking down the stairs.
People are so strange.

Well, I really want to watch a zombie movie. So, I think I shall start one to keep me company during my calculus journey.

xoxo
Emily

New Delhi, India: Day 2



Rupees are the best ever. About 50 rupees is equal to one U.S. dollar. In other words, things there are dirt dirt dirt cheap. I got a shirt for like $2. Also, the turban I wearing in the post above this was like $2 as well, and it's silk. I couldn't even name all the stuff I bought for $200 U.S. dollars. Roughly, like 5 pairs of parachute pants, a dress, four scarves, 11 prayer beads, 3 figurines, 2 meals from McDonalds, a pocket watch, 2 shirts, 3 rings, 13 bracelets, 2 pairs of socks, 3 sweaters, 10 bags, 1 leather purse, 2 scarves... ya. Retire in India.

There are slums ALL over the placein Delhi. It's real strange, because there will be a nice building, but then right next to it, a slum. It's a perfect symbol of their economy. It's amazing, and not necessarily in a good way, to see how they live. Here, at least, the rich and poor are somewhat separated. You know, there are ghetto parts of town, and the richie richie parts. But there, it's like all mixed together. 


Um... I'm not sure if you can tell by this photo or not, but this car was literally only six inches from hitting us. That's how all the drivers drive though. It's a wonder they don't scratch cars up left and right.

I'm aware I already posted this photo, but look at the color. See all that orange haze? Ya. well, that's not my camera. That's Delhi. For some reason, it's just like this weird orange haze at night. It's actually quite creepy. Driving down the roads, you can't see very far ahead because of the pollution, plus there is this unsettling orange color to everything. Oh, and there's random men just standing places. Seriously. Like, at 2 in teh morning, they're just standing on the side of the road, or underneath the overpass, or by the park bench. Like, what are they doing?! It made me think of one of those zombie movies, where the zombies are always just standing around, waiting for someone tasty to come along.

Train station. F my life. It smelled like ****. Literally. Like, men would just pee right on to the tracks. One of my leaders said that last year they saw someone take a dump also... Thankfully my tender eyes were spared that sight. But, it did smell terrible. And everyone stared are us!! Like, they would be walking by, look at us, look away, look back, stop walking, and just stand there staring. You'd think they'd feel a little awkward or something, but no. Sometimes crazy people would try to talk to us, and my leader would have to get all up in their business and say "CHALO." which means go. We had to wait a long time for our train. I was scared my backpack was going to get robbed the whole time, so I made sure someone was behind me at all times. Ha ha ha ha ha.


The actual train wasn't much better. Renae described it as "holocaust" like. I feel like the holocaust was definitely worse, but the train wasn't a party. My friend, Chloe, and I had to sleep on the top beds, while two Indian women slept on the bottom two. They had a very strong smelling dinner. Joy in my garden. Also, I was writing in my journal, and everything I looked down at the Indian lady, she quickly averted her eyes. Real Life Creepster folks. Not as funny as you'd think.

Also, we had to sleep in cocoons we brought from home, because there were bugs. One of the girls in my group got scabies. Vomit everywhere.

Oh! I almost forgot the best part!! A little Indian man walked down the aisle like every ten minutes offering some new food/beverage. He sounded like this, "CHAI TEA!! TOMATO SOU!!" That didn't work as well as I thought it would. Perhaps I'll make a video. It wasn't that bad though, like I slept most of the time. I only woke up twice and thought I was going to fall off the bed, but I guess that's why they had the bars.

XOXO,
Emily

New Delhi, India

Monday, December 5, 2011

Getting off the plane in Frankfurt.


Delhi


Slum next to our hotel


People sleeping on the ground. Everywhere in Delhi. 






The god of strength. Their hand like that means they are giving blessings.








Clubbing in Delhi

Man sleeping at the train station in Delhi. It smelled like feces, everywhere. Literally.

XOXO,
Emily

Utah can be real beautiful sometimes.

Tuesday, November 15, 2011

It's just not consistent.

 I like reading Bright Eye's songs more than I like listening to them. They're really quite beautiful, and I feel like sometimes that gets lost in the music.
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Virginia's almost sleeping
The night is getting older
There's static on the tv
And she's lying on the sofa
The cats crawl over her

Jenny's in the garage
She's got the car in neutral
She rolls it out so quietly
It's Saturday as usual
It always is

And me I'm in my bedroom drawing in my notebook
Cause my hand thinks I'm an artist
But my heart knows I'm a poet
It's just words they mean 
so little to me
so little to me
so little to me
so little to me
so little to me
so little to me
so little to me
I can't seem to deal with something more
When everyone will fall back

Daddy's in the backyard
His hands are getting dirty
And mom is in the kitchen and the cake says that I'm thirteen
Another year

My brother went to college to become a doctor
And if he studies hard enough
He'll end up just like father
Who hates his life

And me I'm in the bathroom
Crying out my eyelids cause it's hard to be a man
When you're scared just like a little kid
The world's become 
a little too mean
a little too mean
a little too mean
a little too mean
a little too mean
a little too mean
And I can't see the point of patient love
When everyone just wants to get ******.
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(I edited it a bit for those of you who are sensitive.)

I hope she didn't use butter.

Sunday, November 13, 2011
I don't eat meat. Under any circumstance.
I don't eat butter or cream cheese if I can control it.

In case you were wondering.


 

"Hold. Up. R Kelly. I am NOT one of your groupies."

Guys, there ain't nothing wrong with a little bump n' grind. 

Rethink your life.

Saturday, November 12, 2011


If a man with nothing to smile about ever existed; it's him.
But look.
What are you doing wrong?

Festival of Lights

Monday, November 7, 2011

Saturday night, three of my friends and I went to the Festival of Lights at the Krishna temple. I don't know why more people don't go. It's reallllly pretty, and more fun than the Festival of Colors.
Well, no. Nothing is more fun than the Festival of Colors.



The temple has two levels. This is the entrance, which leads up to the worshipping level. Then, below it there is a gift shop and a place where people can eat.


This is the pond. The idea behind Diwali/Festival of Lights is the households light up their windows to bring in the best for the year to come. It also marks the return of the God Sri Rama (he was exiled for 14 years). So, they are also welcoming him home by brightening their city.


People light lamps and make wishes for the new year. I guess it's kind of an Indian New Year/Thanksgiving celebration. It's really a great tradition though, and the idea of floating your wish away is so beautiful.



Of course they had their little band playing. I swear to you, every time I come from on of their festivals all I sing for the next two weeks is "holli holli Krishna".


Ok. They had these fireworks that made the strangest noise! It soundd like a cat... being stepped on? I don't know. Maybe they were a special Indian firework!


I would tell you what I wished for, but I don't really know the guidelines. And I'm scared my wish will be jeopardized.



You can't wear shoes inside the temple. I feel like it makes everyone bond more ha ha


Ok! He could legitimately talk! These two little kids were telling us how they had a conversation with him earlier, but we thought they were joking. Um, ya. They weren't. Oh, and if you put your finger by his cage, he will hold it! Go and see for yourself!







So, I try not to post photos of my whole face.
Don't ask why.
But this one is too good not to. As we were walking out of the temple, I stopped to take a photo of the man to my left leading an Indian cow. The Indian man saw me, an told me to come help. He was soooo funny! I showed me how to hold the leash, and then lead us to the pen! My cow kept merging to the left, because he wanted to visit the llamas. I told the Indian man this, and he said, (say in Indian accent) "Oh!! He loves the llamas. Look! There they are! HELLO LLAMAS!!"
That's pretty much how my weekend went. Friday was spent doing nothing. I went shopping with my mom for India supplies. Can you believe I leave in 12 days?! Me either.
Well, I'm watching Criminal Minds, and it's actually very engaging. Watch episode 135-Sense Memory.

I have no idea what the guy's problem is for once!!


xoxo,
Emily